Chapter 89： the difference

Qiu Yu really never thought that there would be such a place as an "underground clinic" in the Star Alliance.

However, although he is not afraid of death, he is not a reckless person. Even if the surgical review fails, he will not seek something that sounds outside the rules. He was lucky to be able to be resurrected in this world after being killed in battle, and he couldn't bet his life on the next fluke.

DU dust is really worrying too much this time.

"Don't worry, I won't." Qiu Yu said, "I still have a clear distinction between freedom and life."

Hearing these words, DU dust suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

He let go of Qiu Yu's arm, slowly took two steps back, and leaned against the wall of the conference room.

Recalling what DU Chen revealed when he was drunk that night, Qiu Yu probably guessed why he mentioned the underground clinic.

Between the two, silence lasted for a long time.

Du Chen suddenly opened his mouth and said in a low voice: "On the night of my sister's death day, I actually still vaguely remember that at that time, I regarded you...as my sister."

Qiu Yu didn't answer.

Did not get a response, Du Chen didn't care, lowered his eyes, and continued to say: "You and my sister are really similar. It's not the appearance, but the character, and the style of speaking and doing things. She is also a very stubborn Oga, moreover, doesn't share what most people think of Oga."

As Du Chen said, the expression on his face was full of memories: "She is not like other Oga, her life's pursuit is to find a good Alpha to marry. She likes outdoor sports and challenges herself, but our parents control Yan, so, most of the time, she can only do those things she likes in the game...

"She is very good at playing games. She once wanted to become a professional player, but unfortunately, she sneaked out to try the game cabin once, and was sent to the hospital. Since then, our parents have been stricter with her."

"I came to play games because of her." Du Chen's eyes were red and his voice was hoarse, "So when I... saw you joining the team, what I thought of was the way she was lying in the hospital ward... , That’s why I’m so anxious, I said so many things that hurt you... Really, I’m sorry.”

Qiu Yu didn't speak, just listened quietly, waiting for Du Chen to finish.

After a pause, Du Chen turned back to the previous topic: "Later, she still got married. The match from the Civil Affairs Bureau was very suitable. My brother-in-law is a soldier, and he is very tolerant towards Oga. He didn't think my sister was deviant. He will guide my sister to carry out professional physical fitness and fighting training... My sister doesn't want to have a child so early, and he also follows my sister's wishes...

"Unfortunately, my brother-in-law...unfortunately died while performing a disaster relief mission.

"My elder sister is very sad and regrets why she didn't leave a child behind. It's a bit of a thought. If my parents arrange a marriage for her, she will threaten her with death and resolutely refuse... She is alone, and the love period is too difficult. I don't want to find another Alpha, so I just thought about... surgery."

Having said that, DU dust raised his hand to wipe away the tears falling on his cheeks, and took a deep breath slowly.

"Of course my parents didn't agree. Later," his voice trembled slightly, with choked sobs, "later on, I saw that she was enduring so much pain during her love life, so I helped her hide it from her parents, accompanied her to monitor, and helped her find a way to get rid of it." When it came time to review... Unfortunately, her application was rejected by the star area.

"But at that time, she didn't want to bear it anymore.

"We searched for a solution. After searching for a long time, we finally... found... an underground clinic in the third sector in the east that does not require approval..."

"...I shouldn't have helped her find it...I caused her harm." Du Chen wiped away the tears that overflowed again, whimpered, and said in a low voice but very fast, "I have already lost a relative, I don't want to lose another...one I like."

Qiu Yu lowered his eyelashes and sighed silently.

Did not get any response, Du Chen stood against the wall for a while, pursed his lips and looked at Qiu Yu.

"...I'm sorry." He whispered, "I shouldn't say such a thing. I won't say it again in the future."

Who knows, Qiu Yu suddenly asked him: "Do you want to kiss me?"

"W-what?!"

DU Chen was startled immediately, and a layer of blush quickly appeared on his face, which was still covered with teardrops.

Qiu Yu asked: "Do you want to love me, or..."

DU Chen immediately stated: "Of course I am willing to love you!"

Qiu Yu smiled and finished the second half of the sentence: "...Or, do you have desires for me?"

"I didn't!" DU Chen panicked, "I don't have any idea of ​​offending you."

"Offended?" Qiu Yu smiled.

Sure enough, it was the same as he inferred.

The previous two times, when Du Chen was drunk and threw himself into his arms to hold him, he was actually more dependent than envious. That hug didn't have any lust, Qiu Yu could tell that DU Chen in that state was just pure, and wanted to draw some strength from him through physical contact.

"I'm different." Qiu Yuyi sat on the conference table and said with a smile, "I have desires for Mu Feibai, and I want to sleep with him."

DU dust:! !

DU Chen's face turned red, and he couldn't help gnashing his teeth: "What are you talking about!"

His tone was horrified and regretful: "You, you...you an O...how could you, so casually, say such a thing...if others, bad-hearted people hear it, they will think that you can casually say something like this... Get started, it's dangerous, don't you know?"

Qiu Yu raised his eyebrows: "You want to control me again?"

DU dust opened his mouth, but did not know what to say.

Seeing the child's face full of shame and anger, Qiu Yu couldn't help but smile.

DU Chen muttered: "What are you laughing at..."

Qiu Yu: "I'm laughing at you, you still haven't figured out your own feelings."

DU dust puzzled.

Qiu Yu said: "You don't have that kind of 'like' towards me, you just transferred your respect, love and guilt for your sister to me. So you can't see me enduring pain for the game, and you can't hear me say something If you may bring disaster on yourself.

"The day I was marked by Mu Feibai, you were angry because you just thought he forced me. Also, seeing that I was marked voluntarily for the competition, you would feel distressed."

Speaking of this, he chuckled lightly, and continued: "But you can endure and mark me as Mu Feibai and continue to train with the team, and you cooperate tacitly in the game, and you are willing to listen to his command. In the restaurant before, you even used it as a cover The two of us fled, at the cost of being beaten."

"I..." DU Chen was at a loss, "...Isn't that right? This is what I should do."

"Don't you understand?" Qiu Yu smiled, "'Like' without possessiveness is not love."

This is what he learned from Mu Feibai.

"Your feelings for me are just a projection of your feelings for your sister, and the protective desire transferred to me. Maybe sometimes, you will feel uncomfortable when you see Mu Feibai and I get close, but it's really not because of being loved by others." Do you feel a little lost after taking away your 'sister'?"

Because DU Chen is Alpha, and he is Oga who has no blood relationship with DU Chen, DU Chen doesn't know what reason to give this emotional projection and desire for protection, so he mistakenly thinks this is "like".

Therefore, Mu Feibai will ignore the post-match process because he triggered the alarm in the game cabin, will sue the opponent because he was bullied, and will respect his willingness to have surgery. Even because of this decision to have the operation, Mu Feibai has been worried about his gains and losses recently and is too clingy, but he never forcefully asked him to change his mind.

But DU Chen has always been immersed in his own world, because of his experience or anger or regret, but he will not disrupt the original plan for him, because DU Chen subconsciously understands that he does not really want to make up for himself. that person.

This is love and tolerance.

And the difference between control and protection.

DU dust momentary speechless.

…

"Tsk, why did he find you again?"

The next night, just after Mu Feibai came back from recording the commercial, Qiu Yu told him about Du Chen.

"I'm jealous." Mu Feibai hugged Qiu Yu, and confidently pretended to be unhappy, "You talk to other Alphas alone behind my back, if you don't coax me well, this matter will be difficult."

Although he said such domineering words, there was not much negative emotion in Mu Feibai's eyes.

Qiu Yu could tell that he wasn't really angry, and asked with a smile, "How do you want me to coax you?"

Mu Feibai leaned forward: "A kiss."

Qiu Yu laughed, raised his face, and kissed Mu Feibai's lips.

Then he was hugged by the other party and thrown onto the bed, pressed into the quilt and kissed so hard that he almost lost his breath.

Panting, Mu Feibai half stood up, lowered his head and whispered in Qiu Yu's ear: "Not enough, you have to coax me again."

Qiu Yu's eyes shimmered, and he raised his eyebrows to look at him.

Mu Feibai's voice was lowered, and his pleading was hoarse: "...brother, help me."

Qiu Yu: ...

See, that's the difference.

After making a fool of himself, Mu Fei was in Qiu Yu's dormitory and didn't want to go back to his room.

But Qiu Yu ruthlessly kicked him off the bed: "You are not allowed to stay overnight. It's almost twelve o'clock, and there is still training tomorrow. Let me sleep well."

Mu Fei got up in vain, and stood beside the bed aggrievedly: "Why don't I let you sleep well?"

Qiu Yu threw the ball of paper at him and said, "I can't sleep with you here."

Hearing this, Mu Feibai was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed out loud.

"Oh?" He raised his eyebrows with a smug expression on his face, "You can't sleep if I lie next to you? Is my brother thinking of something bad?"

"No." Qiu Yu said casually, "I was worried that you would sneak up on me at night and dare not sleep."

Mu Feibai: ...

No matter what the real reason was, knowing that Qiu Yu would not sleep well if he stayed overnight, Mu Feibai obediently left.

Qiu Yu lay on the bed, raised his arms to cover his eyes, and exhaled slowly and long.

The longer he gets along with Mu Feibai, the more difficult it is for him to control himself, and occasionally he will have some dangerous thoughts, such as "Anyway, Mu Feibai is very obedient, so let's make it to the end. You must be able to bear it."

According to his view of feelings, if it were replaced by his previous body, the two of them would have rolled in bed for countless times.

It's a pity that his current body is too sensitive.

Whenever he had such dangerous thoughts, as long as Mu Feibai's fingertips touched the back of his neck, he would immediately dispel those thoughts—he still couldn't adapt to the situation that was too exciting and almost out of control. Let his sense of crisis build up his defense in an instant, let alone a more intimate contact?

Qiu Yu suddenly doubted himself.

If the review of the operation was really rejected, would he be able to maintain this relationship with Mu Feibai in a stable manner as a real Oga.