Chapter 151 - Without him...

*UNEDITED*

"They do, but rest assured. I shall make some time to see you," Oslo trailed off. "Setsura-chan, get along with Akito."

"Of course," Setsura mumbled.

"Then, let's leave it at this today."

"I'm sorry for disturbing you when your busy."

"While I can't answer calls often, feel free to message me."

Setsura said some more words before she ended the call. She turned to Akito whose face was buried in her chest. Did he fall asleep? Her gaze softened when she noticed he was holding her hand tightly. Akito, she can't bear to leave him no matter what happens. It's so strange for her to feel so attached to somebody she met less than two months ago. She is not the type of person who would accept people easily.

Normally, she would be more cautious towards others. Even with that person, but with Akito, it's different. With this person, there are many things that are different. 

"Was that Oslo?"

Setsura nodded, "Mmm, I just wanted to ask a few things. Do you mind?"

"I don't, I heard everything after all."

So he minds. Well, she supposes she will get the full story from him eventually. "Akito, don't you think you're touching me more than usual?"

"Yeah, once I experienced that. I realized what I've been missing these past few years."

'Stupid.' Setsura thought. "Aren't you working too hard? I know I asked you for that favour but…"

"Don't worry Setsura, they've almost granted me permission. Eventually we can start investigating properly."

"I know, and I appreciate it. But you look paler these days," she murmurs. "I don't want you acting foolish just so I could get what I want."

"I thought you'd find this romantic."

Setsura rolled her eyes, "This would be more romantic if you weren't injured."

"Ha," Akito laughs, "When did you notice?"

Geez. "And so what happened now?"

"There was 15 of them. It's fine, I handled it."

Setsura examined his wounds, there was a large thin slice at the center starting from the heel of his palm wrapping to the other side of his middle knuckle. A fresh and painful wound. Numerous scars on his forehead. The more Setsura looked at Akito, the angrier she got. Lately her impression of Akito has improved a lot. As expected, this guy is an idiot! Then again, didn't she know that before?

A deep sigh passed her lips, "Fifteen people? Normally you'd run away." Even the strongest person knows better than to face fifteen people at the same time. No matter how strong a person is, facing fifteen people is impossible. Even the most capable of fighters have a hard time facing that amount at the same time. It's doable, but it's hard to sustain a fight without injuries. One of the main reasons why she is angry is due to Akito's injuries. He keeps injuring his handsome face, what a waste! 

To think this smart guy who she has intellectual conversations with has such a stupid side. She supposes there are no humans out there who are truly intelligent. 

"More like, I was helping Chauncey out. He was like 'If you take out half their numbers at the start, you'll scare them away.'"

"In other words, this is your fault."

At that comment Akito looked at her awkwardly, "How is it my fault? Didn't you hear me, he dragged me into his problems. You know normally I wouldn't even speak with him..." 

Akito's excuses continued to flow, but Setsura wasn't having it.

"You're so stupid. If you ran away, then not even Sir Long would stay behind."

"Uh...why are you mad?"

"I'm irritated that you can't take care of yourself," Setsura mumbled. "Remember, I don't care about how things we're before I came here. Right now things are different, you're lifestyle has changed because of me -- because you're dating me. Think about my feelings. How do you think I'll feel if you come back beaten up like this?" 

"Uh, I'm sorry."

"You're so hopeless."

But even if he is hopeless, right now Amito really is doing his best. She should do the same; and yet, recently she feels so very tired and drained. Maybe it's because she's conveying her feelings a lot more. Who knew conveying your feelings would be this draining? Truthfully speaking, the reason why she hasn't been able to get to sleep even after finishing that recent work, is because she misses him so very much. 

Setsura buries her face in his arms.

"Setsura? What's wrong?"

"Nothing. ." Setsura mumbles as she shifts closer to him.

"I see I see, you want to do it. But mornings are bad for your skin, let's try again at night since I'm really good then."

"I'm not going to agree to that."

Akito only responds with laughter.

Sometimes Akito acts arrogant around others but he is still a selfish brat. He has a bad habit of toying around with other peoples emotions, flinging them around and hurting them. Even if he is showing his kinder self to others now. It doesn't change the nature of their relationship at all. 

Setsura thought about it a lot more about it since she came here; and even more since she decided to open the lock on her cage. She will continue to break staying with him, she figured that out a few months back; and made the choice for their relationship to go on break, yet . . .yet she misses him so much when she can't see him. She misses him so much that it hurts. If she were to meet that person right now. He wouldn't be able to recognize her.

Without Akito's support, she wouldn't have made it this far. She can manage even without him. Setsura understood that with her current status, she doesn't have to stay with Akito anymore. Thanks to the job she has, and the connections she made. There is no longer any need for her to stay in the mansion. But, she will stay. She can't possibly leave him.

Akito's lips trailed against her neckline again. For a moment, it felt like time had stopped. Akito brought her fingers to his lips and he started to lick and suck on her fingers. This sheer action alone made her realize how captivated she was by him. From the very beginning, it was already set in stone. This relationship with him. Setsura knew that she could no longer deny her own feelings. Nor could she continue acting stubborn.

If this person wants to posses everything about her, she will most likely let him. She reached over and ran her hands through his now exposed chest. Setsura wondered when he even removed his top. She needs to start paying more attention.

If it's this person he will accept it, all of her faults. If it's him he will understand. Yet Setsura drew her hand back that she had just extended out to reach him. Love isn't beautiful. She of all people should understand that very well by now. It's because she loved him so so very deeply, that she ended up leaving him with such a huge scar. A person like herself who took away everything important to him does not deserve him. 

A person like herself who's hands have been tainted in more ways than one, doesn't deserve such kindness. Akito however grabbed hold of her hands again. "Setsura."

The way he says her name like she is somebody important, like she is somebody worth of him. It made her feel ashamed. She's always thought so little and negatively of herself. However Akito? He's never once saw her in a bad light.