Chapter 152 - Why is love so fragile?

*UNEDITED*

For the longest time Setsura couldn't sleep.

She couldn't eat properly either. Setsura realized she only felt and acted this way whenever Akito had to work late. Whenever he isn't beside her, she would miss the warmth of Akito's hands. The way he calls her name and the way he holds on to her tightly. But, she wants to become stronger. To become stronger than everyone else, even if she's standing in that vast place alone.

Setsura raked her hands through his soft black hair, as his lips darted across her chest. "Akito.."

"Leave it to me my love."

And she does leave it to him. Between the two of them he is the only one who knows what he is doing. It feels like she should start learning too, Setsura looked at his expression. Sweat trickled down akito's face and his torso. She knew the same went for her, but even then it amazed her how much sweat fell.

"Akito....say.."

"Hmmgh."

Should she interrupt him? Hearing those content gasps and sounds. Setsura didn't know whether she ought to break the moment or not. Just as she thought that, Akito looked up. Beads of salvia darted across his lips.

"Akito, you should teach me how to do that too."

Akito laughed, "It's not exactly difficult. But well, you will learn. For now, let's focus on you."

"Are you sure?"

"Mmm, your not used to things yet."

Akito is hovering over her and their lips are colliding. He tastes familiar now, and it's moreish. Setsura's hands link behind his neck to pull him closer, and he responds with a grunt and a sharp nip to her lower lip. It occurs to her that he could easily crush her with his weight, and she resolves to work out more, but then his mouth is attacking her neck and she stops thinking.

"Akito. .what's wrong?"

"I'm jealous. ."

"I see. .. Your like a child," she combs his hair with her fingers, yet those words didn't last long since he continued attacking her neck.

"You know, your probably the model example of an ideal citizen."

"Ideal citizen?"

"Mmm, because even though you understand that society is wrong. You understands, practically, that chaos would erupt if the system was destroyed without warning."

Setsura sighed, "Well, even if I understand it. It doesn't mean I'll tolerate it."

Akito laughed and gave her lips a light peck.

"That's expected from you."

Expected, huh? She reached out and caressed his cheeks, a hum of approval passed his lips. "Setsura, I don't want to give you away to anyone."

....

To love someone from the bottom of your heart, is the simplest thing in the world. So why is it so difficult? Then again, she probably finds this difficult because she already has someone. What's more, Akito and her - they belong to two completely different

"Why do I always chase after the first person I love even though he wouldn't look at me? " Setsura lifts the cup in her hands and stares at the beautiful orange colour of the drink, "Back then was so sad and drowning in sadness. That was one of the the worst of times. Even so I understand the reason why I was able to laugh during that time. Because I swore that I would protect the one I love with all my heart. But in the end I lost that too. Why is love so fragile?

Why is it that we can't stay away even when it's painful?"

What a depressing topic. . She ought to change it, having made her mind up. The brunette turned around, "Hey, when was your first kiss Akito?"

However, Setsura glanced over and saw that Akito's peaceful sleeping expression. When did he fall asleep again? Oh well. She stood up and put the cup down. It came from Akito's wine cellar. Setsura didn't know he had such a thing until he briefly mentioned it when they were cuddling. Sure enough when she went over to check, she found it.

Akito's first kiss, his first investigation, first job in the military police. There are still so many things she doesn't know about him. But, she is learning bit by bit. Still, 'This kind of situation, she is finding it hard to adjust.' Akito won't be around anymore since he has to investigate. She ought to use that chance to catch up on research. Or she could follow him?

"Mmm, what?"

"Take me with you tomorrow?" It was worth the shot. Even though Setsura knew what his response would be. Recently, she wants to push her limits. How far can she go, before he becomes irritated?

"Sure."

Wait, what?

"Do you mean that?"

"Mmm, I will bring you with me everywhere."

Setsura immediately noticed that he was in a daze and half-asleep. However, this is a opportunity she will not let go of. She pulled out her phone and pressed the record button. "Akito, are you sure it's okay? Isn't it dangerous and I'm sick?"

"Mmm, it's fine. I'll bring you with me everywhere. You'll be fine as long as I'm with you."

While Akito being with her limits the scoop of her investigation. Right now she has his approval, who wouldn't take advantage of this? Feeling slightly happy, Setsura climbed back on the bed and Akito instinctively wrapped his arms around her. "Setsura, my love.."

So foolish, but why does she want to remain by his side so much? These type of feelings are completely new to her. She wonders if she even deserves this much happiness. Lately she is so happy. Though there is that case with that weird woman. Setsura glanced over at the room. It doesn't seem like that weird woman went in here today. Nor does it seem like she's gone near Akito for awhile.

However, her instincts as a woman won't let this matter go. Even though, it looks like she is acting stubborn for absolutely nothing. It's better to be cautious. Setsura recalled such pointless memories and conversations. But, now that she clearly thought about it. Those memories are very useful. When she first heard those conversations, Setsura thought it was useless.

Now she is in a relationship, where things have gotten this far -- things are very different now.

...

"Have you met with Chauncey lately?"

Akito was in a very bad mood. Naturally he would be. When she used that recording against him, not even he could say anything back. Since they left the house, he has kept silent this entire time. So, when he suddenly started talking it surprised her. 'Why ask about your love rival constantly?'

"One, you've been with me this whole time. Two, it's difficult for me to go anywhere without support right now."

"I see, right. Sorry."

"Why are you so cautious towards him?" Setsura questioned. At first she thought it was the thing with his late wife. But, this is a bit too much now. From her observations, Akito is too cautious. "Don't you think you should let me know? I don't like people suspecting me everyday. It makes me uncomfortable."

"Ever since I was a child, Chauncey has always taken everything away from me."

Setsura's gaze darted towards the window, "But you, won my affections in the end didn't you? "

"That's hard to say."

She doesn't say anything at that and remains silent for the next few minutes. As her gaze flickered on to the clouds, how peaceful. If she was a cloud she probably wouldn't have any worries.

"Say, are we partners?"

"We are."

"I also left all my precious things behind when I came here, and when I chose you." Setsura glanced back at him, "I'm glad I was reminded of this. Let's work hard together."

Akito cupped her cheeks, "Where's my apology?"

"I didn't trick you."

"I wasn't conscious."

"Akito, nothing will happen. Quit freaking out."

While Akito doesn't underestimate her. His concern for her getting injured is too much. The same goes for him after all. Their height is similar, she is quite tall after all. But even then Setsura had to stand on her tip toes. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed her lips against his.

"Akito, nnngh..."

He suddenly drew back, "You're making this difficult."

Huh?

"So your like this...I didn't know," Akito kept murmuring these things to himself. What is he talking about? Akito cupped her cheeks again, "Do you ever get embarrassed? You seem awfully calm."

"Do you want me to be embarrassed?"

"I do," Akito trailed of. "But, I guess I can leave it for tonight."

Setsura recalled the events from earlier, "Wait a minute Akito. I've wanted to talk to you about this, but don't you think your touching me too much lately?"

Akito stares at her dumbfounded, "Too much?"

"Yes, too much."

"I see, huh. It's too much."

Did he seriously not realize how ridiculous he has been acting these days? Then again, this is Akito she is talking about here. He has no idea how ridiculous his own actions are. This is probably what they call acting like a stupid couple.