Chapter 166 - Sincerity

*UNEDITED* She doesn't want to lose anybody important to her ever again. Setsura didn't realize how badly she feared losing another person until she met Akito. This is why it's stupid, giving your heart to another person. The moment you do, you lose any sense of rationality and calmness. It's so easy to make claims about not getting attached. But, to actually put that plan in action? It's difficult. Even the coldest person, will not be able to ignore somebody as sincere Akito. Akito is so persistent. He never gave up on her. The moment he decided he liked her, he continued to pursue his feelings for her. Her gaze fell on her surroundings, Akito shifted the two of them until his back leaned against the headboard. She was securely sat on his lap, with his large and strong hands wrapped around her waist.  She winced slightly at the small beams of light that entered the room from between the folds of curtain. Is it morning already? It was a familiar room, with its cream coloured walls and soft fluffy white carpets. Childhood mementos and glass figurines were set out neatly on the bedside table next to the bed as well as the dresser by the window. "Akito...please kiss me." Akito looked at her blankly but bent down and pressed his lips against hers. A light and gentle kiss. But it was enough to calm her down. In the end she had no choice but to tell him about her dream. However his reaction surprised her. Akito seemed baffled by her response, and she had to reach over and caress his cheeks. "Akito?" "I wondered why you were crying so much. I didn't think you'd cry this much because of me." Is this person an idiot? That's his reaction to everything she said? Akito brought her hands to his lips and kissed her fingers. If that's all he did Setsura wouldn't get embarrassed. However, for some strange reason he kept sucking and licking her fingers. "A--Akito,  tell me. What are you doing?" "I'm showing you my love." Setsura rolled her eyes at his response. Since when did this guy become so cheesy? He wasn't like this before. Before Setsura could lecture him, Akito moved his fingers towards her own mouth. Before long she was copying his movements from earlier, sucking and licking vigorously. His lips curve to a teasing smile. "It seems like I know the best way to cheer you up my love. Shall we continue from before? I still have stamina." What stamina? He's so shameless. But Setsura couldn't voice this out due to his fingers intruding inside her mouth. After a few minutes, Akito eventually let her go. Setsura immediately left his arms. "G--get away from me." Akito smiles, "There's your spunky attitude again." He did this on purpose! But, even if he meant to cheer her up. Did he have to use such a method? Still, when she is with Akito she doesn't feel like her usual self. Her personality is bad, there is nothing likeable about her at all. However, Akito has never given up on her. He's never once thought about giving up. This person accepted everything new he learns about her. Since she came here, she's felt less disgusted regarding herself. In the past, she would keep her face hidden - so people wouldn't see her eyes. So, she wouldn't stand out as much. But, with her current hairstyle she stood out a great deal. The reason why she keeps her hair this way is because of Akito. 'I like your eyes.' Her eyes have always made her feel disgusted. She's disgusting. How many times has she heard those words? Even if people never mocked her appearance directly, she's always felt self-conscious. Akito however makes her feel like she is wanted and beautiful. The way his hands ran down her cheeks, and how he kissed her earlier. Why does he treat her so preciously? "Akito, I'm hungry," Setsura looked away from him and laid back down on the bed. Her back facing him. She doesn't want to look him in the eye. If he saw the look on her face, he would surely get the wrong idea won't he?  To her surprise, Akito laid back down on the bed too. After a few minutes he shifted about and wrapped his arms around her. His lips buried at her neck. "It seems like I have to work extra hard to mend your broken heart." "What a fool," she mumbled. "Tell me Setsura, your starting to remember more now. I know you must miss him." Indeed, she can't deny that part of her strange behaviour is because she remembers more. Her boyfriend, her fiance treated her very well. Initially she went out with Akito with the mindset that nothing would change even if she remembered. However, once Setsura recalled how well the other person treated her, she started to feel bad. He's being really persistence, this isn't like him at all. "It's true I miss that person, but even more than that.." 'Even more than that, she would rather remain by his side.' Setsura immediately stopped herself from saying such words. She can't say something like that, no matter what happens. It's true Akito and her grow closer to one another as the day goes by. However, she still can't tell him everything. Besides she is afraid of losing him. Whether from a battle, or him choosing to lose her.  No matter what she does, Setsura can't get rid of this uneasy feeling in her heart. She is worried that one day he would change his mind about her. While Akito faces a similar pain and sadness to her, he still has people by his side. Unlike herself, who only relied on one person for so long. Akito has many people by him. One day, he will grow tired of her won't he? For now he's understanding and accepting of her, but will that last forever? He's a very good person and treats her very well. It's wrong to doubt and suspect him like this. However, Setsura couldn't get rid of that thought. When there are so many other women out there, so many more who are beautiful. Women without any excess baggage.. "What were you going to say?" Akito gave her a curious look. "Nothing." "This is you we are talking about.  Of course I am going to be curious," Akito mumbled. "Huh? Ack hey---" "That stubborn streak of yours is irritating. But I do believe I am coming to like it. It's even kind of cute sometimes," Akito commented. He had altered their position and had pushed her down onto the bed. His arms wrapped around her tightly from behind. And she already thought that the previous position was rather embarrassing considering how she was dressed in her nightgown. Let alone this, this one would definitely be misunderstood !! "W--what do you think you are doing? There are other people here!!" Setsura exclaimed. She was fully aware of how his subordinates went back and forth outside Akito's room. Since they borrowed a building for a makeshift medical quarters. This place has no security. Naturally, Akito's squad members would guard the place. "It's not a problem." Why does he sound so confident about that? How frustrating!