Chapter 1152 - I Wish To Suffocate You

Lu Lijun lowered his head and whispered in Jiang Yuyan's ears in the hoarse voice, "In my dreams, you are always an obedient lovely wife who loves it when this husband touches her."

His bold words shocked Jiang Yuyan as she shrank back at the door.

"I can't wait for those dreams to come into reality," he added.

Jiang Yuyan gulped as she lowered her gaze to avoid looking at him. Her hands clutched the side of her dress but couldn't push him away.

Whenever he used such bold tactics, she was always left helpless and lost as her heart beats faster. He was the only man who dared to do it and she didn't know how to handle him.

Lu Lijun was not done talking yet. "Do you know how difficult it is to hold back when I can see my wife in front of my eyes all the time but every time I have to think before I even touch her?"

"I already told you, I am not your wife," Finally Jiang Yuyan spoke in her low and weak voice with her head still lowered down.

"Do you want me to show you that you are the one for me?" he asked and again moved back to her ear and whispered in a low and hoarse voice, "Trust me, I can't wait to take you to that bed."

With her heart racing faster and breathing turned shallow, she exclaimed as she shut her eyes, "Enough!" But her voice was still weak which failed to show the anger inside her.

"I can never have enough of my wife."

"Get out of my room," she exclaimed coldly.

"You are the one who brought me here. I don't mind calling it our room though." 

Jiang Yuyan felt lost for words. Whatever she said, he would turn those words with a different meaning and she wished not to listen to anything more. She wanted to move away but he trapped her by placing those strong arms on the door on her either side and his tall body, there was no way she could deal with him. Moreover, to deal with him, she would not use force on him and lest hurt him.

"Move back. You are suffocating me."

"I haven't done anything yet to suffocate you." Saying he nuzzled in her nape inhaling deeply.

A shiver passed across Jiang Yuyan's spine and she heard him say again,  "But I wish to suffocate you until you beg me to let you go."

Trapped Jiang Yuyan, finally let go of the dress that she clutched and put her hands on her ears to cover them. "I don't want to hear you."

Lu Lijun noticed the goosebumps on the skin of her nape and her hands that she used to cover her ears. "You can't deny that my touch affects you greatly but you don't want to accept it."

"You are delusional," she countered.

"Then why those goosebumps when I just touched you," he asked.

Unwanted touch makes one feel scared," she said and it angered Lu Lijun. "Unwanted touch, huh? Just wait for the day when I'll make you ask for it."

"You can wait for that day but for now, just let me go," she said, gritting her teeth.

Lu Lijun moved back a little to give her some space as he had tested her patience enough. "As I said before, I will wait for you but don't you even think about going to someone else. Don't test my patience," He warned.

As he finally gave her some space and allowed her to breathe, she glared at him. She wanted to say don't ever come closer to me but she knew he would do the opposite. She had so much to say but all she could do was swallow those words.

"If you are done, then leave," she said, feeling scared that he would definitely say something in return.

"Not yet," he said and stepped back at her. "I am yet to wish good night to my wife." He pecked on her cheek and moved back. "Only this much for tonight as today you might want to keep yourself for my elder brother and his memories."

Jiang Yuyan didn't know how to react to it. Should she thank him for being at least a bit thoughtful and stopping himself from crossing the line with her?

"Good night!" Lu Lijun put his hand on the handle of the door to open it and Jiang Yuyan immediately stepped aside as she was blocking the door. Lu Lijun left Jiang Yuyan's room or he didn't know if he would go back on the words that he had just said to her.

It was the day his brother left them and he didn't want to take that day away from her which she would want to spend with his brother's memories only...not to forget her other pain of losing her baby. If not for her who provoked him, he wouldn't even have said those bold things to her at least not on this day, but it happened.

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The moment Lu Lijun left and the door was closed, Jiang Yuyan felt like she was out of the suffocation she felt and locked the door for her room immediately in a reflex. She calmed herself down and looked at the lock and thought why did she even have to do it? Was she that scared of him?

Jiang Yuyan remembered the moments when he cornered and trapped her at the door and how weak she felt. Sitting at the edge of the couch she buried her face in her palms. 

"Why? Why am I like that when he acts like this? Why can't I push him away? Am I that worried about hurting him?" She remembered the touch she felt when he nuzzled in her nape and the shiver she felt that gave her goosebumps and frowned even loudly as her heart couldn't control its pace.

"Why was it so strange?" she mumbled and lay on the couch as she circled herself in the ball. The feeling she found strange, she had felt it before and it scared her. "It can't be," she said, her voice almost sounded like crying. 

She felt something like this with Lu Qiang only but didn't wish to feel the same with Lu Lijun, not even in her dreams.

'It's because no man dared to come closer to me and neither did I allow anyone. Is my body acting weird because of that? But why does it have to be Lu Lijun? I need to find the way out of it.' she continued to mumble to herself.