C259 259 monologue 4

I learned to be tactful, learned to be worldly, learned to speak human language, said the devil, and all sorts of things happened. I started to spend less time with your mother, and every time I went home, your mother could no longer wait for me to fall asleep. When I woke up, your mother would go back to work early.

This went on for a long time. Your mother was used to self-confidence, and I didn't know she was in a bad mood.

In retrospect, your mother was depressed about that time.

If I had noticed earlier, your mother might not have committed suicide.

Once, your Uncle Han sensed that something was wrong and reminded me. I was about to go back and have a good talk with her, but at this time, Song Xue Yi came over and said that he was pregnant with my child that night.

I was shocked.

I didn't believe her at all. But she seemed to have been prepared to bring me pictures and her hair.

I was instantly drawn to the eyes in the picture, as you and I were, and I could not deny that the three of us had the same eyes.

I did a paternity test, and it turned out to be just as I suspected. The child was really my daughter, and I cheated while your mother was pregnant.

I can't accept this fact, but I can't accept it. I know your mother's character, and I don't dare to tell her about this, so I took a sum of money and sent Song Xue Yi away and told her not to come back.

Because of this secret in my heart, for a while I was afraid to see your mother, I was afraid to meet her unreserved, trusting gaze. I always thought I was too busy at work, and every day I would wait until she fell asleep before returning home, and several times I would find out that she wasn't really asleep, that she was pretending to be.

We were originally husband and wife who talked about everything, but because of this secret, we had a distance. Your mother should have sensed my deliberate evasion later on, so she didn't ask anything, and I definitely wouldn't take the initiative to tell her.

I felt that if this went on, my husband and I would be in trouble, so I changed my attitude toward her and tried to be as nice to her as I'd been when we first got married.

We had indeed returned to our original state. However, not long after our peaceful days passed, the news of Zixi's fight with someone in school reached me. Even though I knew that she had suffered severe injuries, I still hardened my heart and ignored her.

In the end, I couldn't help but sneak a peek at it. It was this peek that resulted in the irreparable result.

When I went with Tree Head, I saw Zixi. That child's face was yellow and skinny. It was obvious that he had been malnourished for a long time. Even though he was in the first year of high school, he still acted like a primary school student.

She had a bandage on one hand and was surrounded by boys who were calling her the daughter of a murderer, the daughter of a mother and the son of a father, and she was so angry that, despite her injured hand, she fell to the ground crying and explaining, "Was it her father, her own father, who was not like that, her own father was the president of a company, he was a very good man.

I knew the pain of that kind of life. I had once vowed to be a good father and not let my children suffer such hardships, but what exactly did I do to make my other daughter walk the same path as me?

So in the end, he let the tree core take action. The child thought that the tree core was her real father, so he held onto the tree core's legs and cried out, "Dad, save me!"

Mu Ren and I could only bring her to the A City to be treated at the hospital. I also understood that I can't ignore this daughter of mine, otherwise I would never be able to live with myself in this life, so I left her in the A City.

Naturally, Song Xue Yi would not let Zi Xi stay here alone. Not long after, she came along as well, she seemed to be very obedient and repeatedly promised that she wouldn't destroy my family. After thinking about it for a while, I also felt that Zi Xi would need someone to take care of her.

After more than a year of this, I can't keep it a secret any longer. I'm going to explain this to your mother.

It's just that I didn't expect your mother to commit suicide before I could explain.

In this world, she is the person I am sorry to. She is the person I love the most, but I have failed her.

If time could be repeated, I would have communicated with her immediately when I found out that there was still a daughter outside. Even if she hated me and wanted to divorce me, I didn't want to see her, covered in blood, die in front of me.

She was the warmth of my life, and I didn't want to hurt her even if I hurt myself.

After reading her diary later on, I found out that Song Xue Yi had looked for her and knew that she had been suffering from depression since a long time ago.

But I knew her, and none of this was the main reason for her suicide. She was simply taking revenge on me in such a decisive manner, for my betrayal.

Mo Nuan couldn't help but cover her mouth as she sobbed softly. The words written on the paper were very heavy, and almost broke the paper.

After your mother died, I was depressed for a while, either working or smoking.

Not long after that, you and Zixi had that same thing happen again. You were on the verge of death and Zixi's legs were amputated. If I hadn't insisted, she would only be able to live in a wheelchair.

During that period of time, I was truly in a mess. I would only secretly linger outside your room in the dead of night, only then would I go talk to you. I was happier than anyone when I heard that you had awoken.

Song Xue Yi insists on suing you, but I do not believe that you were the one who took control of the accident. I watched you grow up, I know your personality better than anyone else, and it's just a small fight.

I used all my connections to investigate, but I couldn't find anything. The power behind the truth was far beyond my imagination, and it was only then that I realized that I wasn't strong enough to help my daughter clear her throat.