C260 260 Monologue 5

You should know more or less about what happened afterwards from your Uncle Han. Song Xue Yi made the condition for you to leave Mo Clan, and since she and Zi Xi had just entered the door of light, I could only helplessly make the cruelest decision.

For my warmth, Daddy has always believed in you, but Daddy is too weak, so he can only let you bear the sins that don't belong to you, and leave home by yourself.

I know that your aunt and uncle will not mistreat you, so I dare not go to B City to see you, for fear that I will be unable to hold back when I see you. I don't know what kind of things you are involved in, and the kind of things you don't know frighten me about, but all I can do is keep you away from the A City and hope that you can live a good life elsewhere.

The words on the book did not have much logic, as if she could write whatever she wanted to write. Mo Nuan only felt as if her heart was being cut by a knife, and she could no longer control her tears, which flowed down her face unceasingly.

I want to be a good husband, but reality is too helpless. I also want to be a good father, but I couldn't do it. I made your and Zixi's lives unhappy.

Looking back, I was surprised to find that my life was a success that I had thought I was, in fact, nothing. I had let down too many people, especially the one I loved the most.

She saw that I had made a will and had a huge argument with her. Only then did I realize that nothing happened between us that night, that she had lied about it, that she had even changed the date of Zi Xi's birth, that she had actually never had peace since the time she went to A City, that aside from the time she came to visit your A City, she had also created all kinds of opportunities to meet your mother, and even showed pictures of me visiting Zi Xi to your mother every time.

I think your mother was actually waiting for an explanation from me. It was only because I didn't move that she became dispirited and chose to leave in that manner.

Warmth, father's lifelong obsession is too deep, wholeheartedly to stand at the top of the pyramid, only then did you realize that you were too lonely when you actually stood on it, you no longer have the person you love, no longer have the person you were with.

Father said so much, not because he was trying to excuse himself, but because some words had been stuck in his throat for too long and he felt a little uncomfortable, so he said it in such a way because he wanted to tell you that Father had always loved him.

Actually, when I found out that I had lung cancer, I wasn't sad at all, I was just happy, happy that I could finally look for your mother in broad daylight, not to become a weakling in others' mouths, not to be looked down by others, so I completely refused to treat her in the beginning.

The only thing I can't let go of is you and Zixi. Just as I was about to go to B City to pick you up, you came back yourself.

At that time, I was extremely anxious, afraid that you would meet another person who was as useless as me. Fortunately, Lu Chen was a person that was worthy of your trust.

I wanted to see if you could be happy all the time, so I agreed to go to the United States for treatment.

When I heard that you and Zixi were pregnant, I was very excited. I hoped that I could see the birth of the child and hear them call me "Grandpa".

Zixi is like me when I was young, feeling inferior. I always felt that my birth was inferior to someone else's, that if others were to mention her birth, she would immediately start a quarrel with someone else. As for you, you are more like the successful me. You are confident that whatever you think of can be obtained by your own hands.

However, she was also a persistent child. In a car accident, her legs were almost amputated, and she recovered her health that even men couldn't stand. She stood up again after surviving the attack.

I hope you can give her a chance. I don't beg you to get along with her, but don't let your blood clench together. I don't want to see this kind of situation. Of course, if she goes further and further down the wrong path, Dad won't blame you for what you want to do.

I felt that I had never been ashamed of her in my life, that I could do anything for her, that the future was in her own hands.

With trembling hands, Mo Nuan flipped to another page. On this page, there were not many words.

If I knew that I couldn't become a good husband in the future, I definitely wouldn't provoke such a beautiful woman like your mother, but I don't regret bringing Zixi to my side. Regardless of whether her mother is the person I love, she is still my daughter.

When Lu Chen came out of the study room, it was already 1am in the morning. He thought that Mo Nuan had already gone to sleep, but did not expect to see her covering her mouth with a blanket, trying her best to suppress her crying. Tears rolled down her face continuously, and she cried until she was out of breath, as if she could faint any time.

Glancing at the black notebook on the ground, he immediately guessed that her collapse was related to the things on it. He strode forward and held her in his arms. "Warm, it's okay, it's okay."

Mo Nuan hugged Lu Chen tightly. Her heart was in so much pain that it was hard for her to even breathe.

"Lu Chen, my father said that he had always believed in me and he had always strived to find evidence as well, but he wasn't strong enough, so he couldn't find it. He believed in me, and he actually believed in me as well.

Mo Nuan's emotions were in a state of breakdown, but Lu Chen understood what she meant, "Mn, I understand, he believes in you, he believes in you."

"I should have forgiven him earlier. He said he didn't want to live after my mother died, but he couldn't stop worrying about me." She did not know how bitter he was. If she had known, she would have forgiven him early and accompanied him through his last days, instead of letting him go abroad alone to cure his illness and die quietly and without reason.

"He said that he wanted to raise the Mo family because he wanted to become stronger. He wanted me to protect him when things happen, and not let me go to my hometown and suffer the injustice."

"He said he loved my mother. He loved her very much, even more than he thought."

Mo Nuan said in an intermittent voice but Lu Chen did not interrupt her. Instead, she lightly patted her back to give her silent comfort and support.

"Warm, calm down first. You're too excited right now."