Chapter 203 - Caught Doing Nothing

Jack

After leaving the kitchen and running away from Gill like I had committed some kind of crime. I decide to call Trick in the middle of the day at work. I have an hour-long lunch break and I didn't even get the chance to eat, so I want the next best thing, which is to spend time with my fiancé. 

I knew that if I called him, he would leave everything he was doing. That is just the kind of person that trick is. He would literally do anything for me and with this big lie, I feel like I am taking advantage of him. I don't know if it even makes sense. 

I wait outside the office in the reception for him. 

"Hey Gill,'' I hear the receptionist greet him as he walks over to me. I am seated in a corner but somehow, he manages to find me. I stand up immediately because this is not the confrontation I wanted. I don't want to talk to him here in the office about what happened. 

I walk out of the building but I hear his footsteps as he follows me "Stop fucking following me,'' I turn around and shout in anger. 

he stops walking but I don't see him make a move to leave me the fuck alone. I don't want to talk about that night because I wish it didn't happen. I wish I had never lied to him. 

"I need to talk to you.'' 

"I don't want to talk about it, so it is fine if we just act like it never happened,'' I tell him, going straight to the point. 

"Can I just have a couple of minutes with you?'' he raises his hands up in the air--in an 'I mean no harm' way. 

I shake my head in frustration "I don't have time for this." I turn in the direction of the car park. Maybe I can just hide out in my car. 

He sighs and then runs his hands through his hair in frustration "I fucked up and I am sorry.'' he tells me. 

I am surprised by his sudden apology and it makes me stop walking "You are sorry for what?'' I ask him wanting to know the real reason why he is apologizing. 

He takes a step towards me "For kissing you. I don't know what I was fucking thinking. I don't know why I did it.'' he tells me. 

I shake my head "Okay, that is fine but it is just a kiss. It doesn't mean anything. We can just pretend it never happened. we don't have to talk about it and make a big deal out of it." 

He nods "Yeah but I don't want you avoiding me. I don't want our relationship to be weird and awkward." 

I laugh "If there is one thing that I can guarantee, it is that we don't have a relationship whatsoever. We aren't even friends.'' I tell him honestly and maybe a little bit harshly. 

He sighs "What if I want to be friends? What if I want to make things right between us?'' He asks me with this hopeful expression in his eyes. 

I shake my head "No. I don't want to be friends. I never want to be your friend. It is a very bad idea,'' I tell him because I can't do this. Especially since I went and lied to Trick. Now there will always be this reminder, of the lie. 

"Why not?'' he asks me disappointed. 

"Jack?'' I hear Trick before I see him and it feels like my heart is about to explode. I haven't done anything wrong but it feels like I was caught doing something wrong. 

"What are you doing outside, the sun is quite hot today,'' I turn around, and Trick smiles at me warmly as he takes my hand in his and pulls me close to him. 

I kiss him back because this is not the time to act weird. 

"Are you ready?'' he asks me with a smile once I pull away from him. My eyes find their way to Gill and he is watching the scene. 

"Oh shoot, I didn't see you there,'' Trick moves closer to him and stretches his hand out "I am Patrick Jack's fiancé, you must be one of his colleagues." 

Gill takes his hand in his and manages a smile but from my end, it looks very fake "Nice to meet you, I am Gill." 

Trick smiles at him and then turns to me "I thought we were going out for lunch.

"Yeah, we are, I was just waiting for you," I tell him shakingly. I hate this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I hate that I feel guilty even though I haven't really done anything. 

"I should let you guys go for your lunch,'' Gill interrupts with a wave. 

Trick smiles at him "You should come with us if you want.'' he says and Gill seems to hesitate for a moment. 

"I would love to but I have a lot of work to catch up on,'' he says. 

I nod my head because there is no way that is a good idea "Yeah, you should get back to work,'' I tell him, my voice a little shaky from all the nerves. 

I don't know what the fuck I am doing but I don't think this makes sense anymore. I thought I was keeping this from Trick for his own good but now I can just see things spiraling and turning to shit. 

I can't do this anymore. 

I need to tell him. 

the longer I keep the truth from him, the more it will seem suspicious when and if he finds out. I haven't done anything wrong but now it feels like I am cheating on him. I don't have feelings for Gill. There is nothing but misunderstandings, so why am I even acting like this?

why have I made a mess of the whole thing? 

"Nice meeting you again,'' Gill says and walks away from us. 

I look at my boyfriend and he pulls me into his arms in the middle of the parking lot. 

"Ready?'' he asks kissing my temple softly. 

I have to tell him the truth now. 

"I need to tell you something,'' I tell him. 

Okay. I have to do this.