Chapter 1300

"How many years have you and I been together, drow?"

From the moment I walked out of the mountain village, we had been together for 14 years.

I said, "how many fourteen years does a man have?"

"Yes, I've controlled your 14 years of life. I've been wondering if I'm right. Especially recently, I've been in China. Apart from doing business, I've been thinking about this. I've been to all the places we've been. Everywhere I've been, I've been thinking about what's going on between us, good and bad. These things are like scars on our bodies, or annual rings It's carved into our bodies, so we can't forget it. "

His voice is like the sound of nature, flying from the distant horizon, falling on my ear, bewitching people's heart.

He said he didn't want to control my life any more. He told me to make my own decisions and enjoy the life I needed.

Therefore, he will go home on time, go to work and do his own work. He is still a good husband, a good father and Feng Fei's brother. He is waiting for me at home.

And I can fly as high as I want, as long as I want to come back, he will accept.

He said that if I really realize that the person I really love is not him, he can also accept divorce, break up, forget about the river and lake from now on, and never disturb my life again. In this way, I can really walk out of the mountain and start my own life.

This kind of laissez faire makes me lose the direction of my life for a while. I don't know what I want to do or what I need.

After he got out of the car, I sat in the car crying like a child who had lost his parents.

In such a dark night, I just want to find a place to cry quietly, to save my family that I can't tell whether it's love or control.

After crying for a long time, Lu Shao pulled me out, put me in the co pilot's position, closed the car door, met a loud noise and told me, "let's go to drink."

There are still a lot of people in the bar. We crowded into the most noisy position inside. He drank one cup at a time, and I poured spicy drinks into my stomach one cup at a time. It seems that I have long forgotten what my life is like. It's a terrible mess.

We got drunk and his bodyguards took us home.

The hangover in recent days made me feel terrible all over. When I woke up at noon the next day, I went to the hospital again.

This time, I knew that I had a family behind me, a man who loved me, and a mother who was waiting for me all the time. But I came here without hesitation, even if I came here, it would make me very comfortable.

Feng Fei didn't talk much. He ate the fruit I cut for him quietly. He didn't ask me why I came here again. He didn't even interrupt me to cut more fruit. He just ate a lot quietly. I didn't put down the knife until the table was full of fruit.

I looked at him and laughed, "I'll wash my hands."

When I came out of the bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror and frowned helplessly. Does this woman with messy hair and no image know me? I'm getting old. I'm no longer young when I'm 30 years old. Maybe it's because of the pressure of life, or maybe I have a bad face. I just feel that I'm a bad woman who shouldn't be taken seriously in the mirror .

In the end, in my heart, what is Feng Fei's position?

I have no choice but to shake my head. This question is constantly hovering in my mind. I'm going to be crazy and torture myself like no one, but I still can't get any answer.

"Drow?"

Feng Fei is calling me outside.

I washed my face hard before I turned out.

He was still in the same position as before, looking at me nervously.

I smile, took a paper towel to wipe off the water stains on my face, walked over, sat down and fiddled with the fruit knife again.

I asked him, "is this the knife I stabbed you with before?"

He laughed. "Guess what."

I can't laugh, just frown at the outline of the knife, thinking about the heart activities at that time, I hate him so much, I really want to kill him, but my anger is wrong, if I were a stranger, I would really laugh and ignore it.

It is he who can do it, not others, that makes me so sad.

After all, I care about him.

"Feng Fei, I'll stay and take care of you all the time."

I don't know why. I don't want to go home. The children don't want to see me. I'm afraid they're crying for me to go back. I'll turn around and leave immediately, but I still have a bad life when I go back.

He didn't speak, just looked at me quietly.

In order not to embarrass myself, I cleaned up his clean place.

When I was about to clean up for the third time, he stopped me, "drow."

With a helpless sigh, I put down the rag and sat down.

He said, "I'm glad you stayed, but you should think about your life now."

People, that's it. I stayed with him, but he asked me to think about my family. Don't he know that even if I go back, I can't live well, because I really can't let him go.I said, "Zhuo Feng told me that he was also interested in Du Hong. No matter how many women he had in his life, there were only one or two that he cared about most, except that I was Du Hong. When I had a premonition that it was wrong, I would send Du Hong away. Even if Zhuo Feng broke Du Hong's leg, Du Hong still didn't give up. And Zhuofeng at that time was just like me now. Feng Fei, Zhuo Feng said that he was a little sorry, because forbearance is not responsible for himself and everyone around him. He told me that he would accept if he wanted to leave, and he would continue to accept me if he wanted to go back. I know I am selfish, but I don't want to be the second one, if I really treat you I, I don't want to make myself regret. He has controlled me for more than ten years, and finally he is willing to give me a chance to make my own choice. I don't want to give up. Feng Fei, don't tell me to go. It's not easy for me to enter this room. "

Feng Fei took a deep breath. The look in his eyes was like a deep pool, pestering my eyes and soul, even if I wanted to move away.

He reached out and said, "can I hold you?"

I was stunned for a moment. There were many hugs between me and him, but not once he asked me to hold me after he asked for my advice. Every hug had the strong desire in his body, which was irresistible.

But this time of inquiry, I can not refuse, I think, I need such a hug, like a comfort, like an encouragement.

I said, "good!"

Slowly up, I walked over, he hugged me, the action is very gentle, I did not feel his temperature, but I can hear his voice close, he asked me in a trembling voice, "if we are really together, will you regret it?"

I shake my head, this time is my own choice, Zhuo Feng did not give me any obstacles, I will not receive anyone's obstruction, I certainly will not regret.

"No!"

"Well, let's have a try. Like lovers, if I still can't get your heart, I will die and stay away from you forever."

I nodded.

In this way, it is like a kind of contract, restricting each other's hearts, not overstepping, not impulsive.