181 SHE IS RUSHING

I hold her hands above her head as she was trying to wriggling, 

"Do not you try to do this, because you think that you are stronger than me huh", I said as I was holding her tightly, 

"Ayan, what you are doing is not right, just leave me right now and get out from here, Suhani would be coming anytime soon", she said to me in a warning tone, but I smirked, to be honest I know she will not come so soon, and second I do not care if she comes, 

"You think I am gonna leave you when you are not listening to me, huh", I said as I roamed my finger on her face and she closed her eyes, she breathes were getting heavy, and I know she was trying hard not react on my touch, 

"Ayan, I do not want to talk to you, please leave", she managed to say as she was trying to get freed, and controlling her reactions, I smirked as she has a great effect of me, 

"Ayan, leave or you will regret, I swear", she said and she thought I am afraid of her empty threatenings, 

"Okay, I will see what you can do, I am ready for the regret", I said and placed a small kiss on her neck, and she just took a deep breath and she was trying hard to control her blush, 

"Ayan, I am giving you a warning, do not do this", she said, finding difficulty to speak, 

"Or else, what you will do baby", I said as I was feeling I was losing control, she was looking so hot and her reactions were so cute, 

"I, I am just telling you Ayan, just leave", she said hardly, her eyes were still closed and she was trying so hard to control her blush, 

"I am not gonna leave, do what you want", I said and put my lips on he, she was about to speak something when I did this, but her body become rigid when she felt what I did, 

She did not dare to open her eyes, but she was not responding to my kiss, she was standing still, I know she still wants me, and I also know that she will not stop me, 

I started moving my lips towards her, and she was trying to wriggle, but I hold her hands more tightly, I slowly bite her lower lip, and her body reacted strangely, and I was hearing her heart was beating so fast, she was struggling for the oxygen, 

And then she started moving her lips too, and I felt millions of butterflies was roaming around my body, I felt so happy and excited at the same time when she started responding, 

I was feeling like I am at cloud nine, I left her hands and cupped her face with my both of hands, she put his hands on the chest but she did not push me, she was still kissing me back, and it was one of the best kisses, 

I was feeling lack of oxygen, but I did not want to leave her lips, I was feeling like I am kissing her after so long time, and she is tasting like the yummiest candy to me, 

I smiled as I saw her red blushy face, and she could not hide it anymore and she smiled too, thank god she smiled, I was somehow yearning to her smile, I know I made her upset and she was so angry with me, but to be honest, I missed the conversations we used to have, 

And the most precious thing, I missed her smile, I know I had to behave like an asshole, but I was missing her every day, 

But my heart just broke when I saw she was crying, she was smiling but tears were rolling down to her cheeks, I felt so bad when I saw her like that, 

"Jhummi, please just do not cry, please", I said and wiped her tears, 

"Who cares, huh", she said in a taunting way, and I felt so bad, I again wiped her face and placed a small kiss on her forehead,

"I am sorry, please", I said and she just nodded, and I pulled her into a hug, and she was sobbing hard on my shoulder, what the fuck I have done, I hurt her so badly, 

"Ayan, you know very well that I never trusted anyone before you, I just, I just crossed my limits with you, I never liked anyone before you, and there was no one before you, you knew it will be so hard for me if you ever break my trust, still you did the same thing I was afraid of", she said between her sobs, 

And I get pulled back and looked at into her eyes, the tears and the tears, and took a deep breath as she was so hurt and I wish I could change what I did, but I could never have this option, 

I poured water in a glass and make her drink it, and then somehow she was looking a little relaxed as she wiped her face tightly, 

"I know I hurt you so badly, but trust me, I will try my best not to hurt you again ever", I said as I pecked her cheeks and she forced a smile, 

"Why you are not looking serious about you are saying", she said and I got confused, 

"I am serious, I am so serious Jhummi, just trust me", I said as I do not know what to say, 

"Trust, yeah, trust, of course, I trust you so much", she said but I know she was taunting again, and she will do this continue until she could trust me again, but what the hell I should do, I am just feeling helpless, 

She wiped her face with a handkerchief and released a deep breath, she got up from the bed and she stood up in front of me, I just do not know what she was doing, I mean I got a little confused, and then she just surprised me, 

She sat on her knees and she was looking straight into my eyes, I was just feeling so shocked and I do not know how to react, 

"Ayan, I know you are too surprised to react, but I just want to let you know that you are the first boy of my life, and you are the one who touched me like that, in my whole school life and college life, and till now, I never allowed anyone to come closer to me", she said and I was feeling so numb, I should feel special right, but I was feeling scared, 

"Ayan, you are the one with whom I crossed my limits, and you are the one who stole my first kiss, and I want you to become my last, I like you so much Ayan Singh, and I believe you better know about my feeling, you make me feel so special in a way that no one could ever do, and the time I spend with you was the most beautiful time of my life, and I want to live that moment again with you", she said and gets up from the floor and came closer to me, 

I was too surprised to react, I know we had shared so many special moments, and I made her feel so special, and the time we shared was just amazing, but I was feeling scared, I mean I never imagined she will do this, I mean I knew her feelings but I do not know why I was feeling scared and I just do not know how to fucking to react, 

"Ayan, first I thought that you just came here to take a revenge or something because in your entire career you never lost a single match, but here, I defeated you, so I hurt your ego, but then you made me feel so special, and I even started loving myself more, so many things got changed after I met you Ayan, even my whole life changed after I met you Ayan, and now I do not know if I could imagine my future without you", she said and I felt so numb, 

I mean is not she is exaggerating, I do not think that her life gets changed at all, she was too famous in boys before, and she is still famous, I mean, I am not feeling that the things are going into a right direction, 

I was about to speak something but she put her lips on mine, and now I know that she is a hell serious, no, it does not mean that I was just playing around her, no, I liked her too,

but she is rushing the things,