Chapter 1426

"You..."

"You..."

"You say it first."

"You say it first."

"I..."

"I..."

Two people speak at the same time but pause at the same time, at the same time, they are surprised but smile at the same time. The synchronous posture perfectly interprets the action of "looking in the mirror" in daily life. In the weird, they take it for granted that they are used to it. Then the two people are quiet at the same time, and they look at each other quietly. No one speaks, but no one leaves.

The pain of splitting headache has all disappeared, leaving nothing but nothingness. Vaguely, fingertips are trembling slightly, toes are floating gently, and the feeling of chaos and trance seems to be standing in the cloud, unable to find their own center of gravity, and all perception and thinking become blurred.

Is this reality or illusion? Is this a dream or an idea?

He watched him.

He watched him, too.

A faint sadness and bitterness spread slowly. They didn't speak, but they couldn't help palpitating. They couldn't tell whether they were flustered or frightened, or whether they were happy or worried. Time and space have completely lost their meaning at this moment, and the sight is surrounded by black, endless black, with no end in sight.

"You should say goodbye."

As the silence slowly spread, a third voice appeared, as if it had passed through my ears and sounded directly in my mind. He turned his head with him, and then saw Heather cross out of thin air.

Why is Heather here?

Why did Heather and chujiashu appear at the same time again?

Why did Heather choose to appear at this time?

Before the question had not been answered, the later question was born again. Lanli immediately realized his clumsiness: without the cover of gentlemanly etiquette, the sophistication of two generations, and the restraint of calmness and depression, all his emotions seemed to be unable to hide, just like a newborn baby, and all of them were bared.

In front of her, wearing a white lace dress, bright smile, bright eyes and thin shoulders, everything seems to have never changed. The power of time has forgotten her existence, so that she still retains her innocent and playful face. Time is forever fixed at the age of 17.

Heather's steps stopped five steps away, and he waved with a smile and said, "Hey."

"..." Lan Li tried to say hello, but the words got stuck in his throat, and he couldn't make a sound. He thought he could face it calmly. He thought he was used to it, but the faint pain in his heart rippled again, and then his eyes turned red.

At last, Lan Li could only show a big smile, bitter but brilliant smile, nodding gently toward heather. That's all.

Heather seems to be aware of the eyes of lanli, and his smile blooms greatly. "Lanli, I'm fine. I'm serious. I'm fine now. Don't worry about me. Now the most important problem is you, you are not good, you are not good at all

"I'm fine." Lan Li's smile was stained with a touch of difficulty, trying to cover up his true emotions, but he found that he could not do it at all, and all his thoughts showed up without any cover. Even if Heather didn't speak any more, Langley became embarrassed. He shook his head and lowered his eyes.

Then Heather said again, "you should say goodbye."

"I've already said that." Langley tried to defend reflexively.

Heather did not worry, but quietly looked at Lan Li, pause for a long time, "Lan Li, you know you do not, otherwise, you will not be trapped in the same dilemma, again and again, again and again, just like a nightmare, countless times entangled up to now. He's here, and I'm here. "

Lan Li raised his head, looked at the opposite Chu Jiashu, then looked at Heather on the right side, and closed his eyes painfully, "I said goodbye more than once; But I don't know how to keep waving goodbye, I don't know. I can't do it. " Lan Li gently shook his head, every action seemed to consume all the strength, "I can't do it."

"Lan Li, the real farewell, is not farewell, but embrace and accept, or remember and commemorate. What we need is reconciliation with ourselves. " Heather whispered, "I'm here, he's here, and we're here all the time. Farewell does not mean forgetting, but a new beginning. "

No one can say goodbye to the past completely.

Because, it is thanks to the past experience, good and bad, positive and negative, smooth twists and turns, happiness and suffering, all of those put together, this is the achievement of the present self; Therefore, when a person begins to say goodbye to himself, he is tantamount to denying his existence value. Even if he completely changes his face, those memories are deeply rooted, and the past is like a nightmare forever.

Lanli is no exception.

Those memories and experiences belonging to Chu Jiashu have made Lan Li what he is now. The pain, the frustration, the torture, the depression and the darkness are all deeply hidden in his memory. The change of appearance is still the same soul after all. He thinks he is calm, he thinks he is used to it, and he thinks he is honest, But... He didn't.

He just started a whole new life.

Carefully hide those memories in the deep of my mind, like a huge and ugly back scar. After the pain, the wound healed, and then refused to turn back again, and tried to run barefoot in front. It seems that as long as you don't turn back, the scar will not exist, and you can turn a new page, as if the scar never appeared.

The same is true of heather.

But he was wrong.

From "anti-cancer me" to "detachment", from "gravity" to "drunken ballad", they entangle and sink in again and again, bid farewell and turn around again and again. Those memories have never really recovered. Ignoring does not mean disappearing, ignoring does not mean healing, and escaping does not mean getting rid of.

Now, it's the cracker drummer. This haunting nightmare, from the beginning to the end, is still in the back of my mind, never disappeared, never subsided, back and forth. The real farewell has never been completed.

The so-called farewell is not to completely cut off the past, but to open your arms, embrace those scars and pain, those hardships and frustrations, admit that you are the truest and most complete yourself, including beauty and ugliness, accept those setbacks, those fears, those tortures, and those happiness, those joys, those sincere, brave and firm hugs.

Only when we accept everything calmly, can farewell really end, complete transformation, incarnate into a new self, open a new world and start a new life.

It's like Levine Davis of "drunken folk.".

At the end of the story, Levine finally returns to the kerosene lamp bar again, comes to the stage and plays the melodious and moving "farewell wave", but this time, without Mike's company, he is alone; He no longer complains, no longer resents the world, no longer feels sorry for himself, and truly accepts the fact that he is alone

"One morning in the future, it won't be too far away, you will call my name, and I will say goodbye."

Levine accepted the fact and the wound began to heal; However, what the future should be, he lost his way, and could only wait for his mood to calm down, make a new plan and start again. Maybe he could find the direction, maybe not, but at least he would not continue to paralyze himself.

So is he.

He should learn to thank, thank that ten years of bed, let him precipitate all irritability, a little bit of happiness also know how to meet; He should learn to be grateful for the illness that bound the body, let him understand the meaning of life, and let go of his hands and feet; He should learn to embrace, embrace the pain of torture, let him have a strong nerve, in the face of all difficulties.

In those ten years, not all memories were painful and dark; In the last life, not all memories are dim and dull. Only by embracing Chu Jiashu can we insist on the choice of lanli hall.

He doesn't know what will happen in the future, but he knows that he is eager to make breakthroughs, he is eager to continue to make progress, he is eager to achieve greatness, he will never give up easily, and he will never give up. This life is still very long, and he is far from enjoying it.

He should learn to act alone and lose his crutch——

No longer deliberately distinguish the differences between Chu Jiashu and Lan Li, but calmly embrace all memories; No longer deliberately demonize the time on the bed, but honestly face all the moments; I don't want to do my best to run as fast as I can. It's like a flood of beasts chasing after me. I'm afraid I'll slow down a little. This life is like a dream.

So did Andrew.

He has talent, but he is too green; He has talent, but he lacks experience; He has ability, but he needs time; He has the potential to surpass greatness, but he has to believe in himself.

Everything is contradictory. He needs to accept both the positive and the negative. No longer because of Fletcher's strength and madness, no longer because of the pursuit of the ultimate speed and forget the essence of the drum, no longer because of the fierce competition and forget the beginning of the heart, no longer because of the achievement of a great dream and worry about gain and loss.

If Andrew bound himself, if Andrew imprisoned himself, if Andrew refused himself, then he would never be able to go any further. He could only stay in the same place, just like Epiphyllum. After it bloomed, it would wither and die quickly.

Break and stand.

But the premise is to admit yourself first. Andrew was like that, and so was he.

"We need to reconcile with ourselves."

Suddenly unable to defend the ground, Lan Li's heart suffered a heavy blow, another heavy blow, those scabby wounds burst open again, blood Sheng opened a flower, deep into the bone marrow, the pain of the soul, just like a grand fireworks show, broke out, destroyed all the defense lines of Lan Li.