Fei Luo blinked and turned his head to look at Sun Yan, only to see the side of Sun Yan's face… and his red ears. "You… like me?" he asked him.
"Yes." Sun Yan answered as he took a deep breath to calm his heart that is beating wildly.
Fei Luo placed his hands on the ground and lifted his body to look at Sun Yan. "You… like me?" he asked again and looked at Sun Yan's face that turned red. His gaze is perplexed.
"I do." Sun Yan answered and met Fei Luo's gaze.
"… why?" Fei Luo asked.
"I just like you." Sun Yan honestly answered as his face turned redder.
"I mean… I am boring." Fei Luo said as he pondered. "I don't really understand this kind of things." He said.
"For me, you are the best." Sun Yan sincerely answered.
Fei Luo stared at him.
Sun Yan suddenly got nervous. "You…" he spoke. Is he going to reject me? He thought. This made his chest hurt and his eyes reddened.
With the help of the moonlight, Fei Luo saw Sun Yan's eyes glistened with tears. His eyes widened. He has never seen Sun Yan cry! Even when they were young and Sun Yan was being hit by his parents because he helped Fei Luo by covering him and Fei Huo up when them brothers were once late for classes.
"You…" Fei Luo muttered and suddenly felt his heart ached when he saw that he was about to cry. "Don't cry!" he said and cupped Sun Yan's face to make him face him. "Don't cry!" he said and suddenly felt panic when he saw that Sun Yan's tears are about to fall.
Since both his hands are holding Sun Yan's face, he leaned down to lick the other's tears.
Sun Yan's breath hitched and he felt that his heart is about to stop when Fei Luo licked his tears. "Fei Luo." He called.
"Don't cry. Don't cry, okay?" Fei Luo said. "… why are you crying?" he asked.
Sun Yan didn't answer.
"Tell me!" Fei Luo frowned.
"Because you might reject me." Sun Yan finally answered.
"… 'reject'?" Fei Luo muttered.
Sun Yan didn't explain. "Why don't you want me to cry? Just let me cry." He told him and bitterly smiled. With how Fei Luo is, Fei Luo will definitely reject him. Not to mention that there is his brother, Fei Huo… Sun Yan felt that his love life is dim. I should have seen this coming… so that I – he closed his eyes.
Fei Luo saw him become silent. "What are you thinking?" he asked. He is still pondering about the 'reject' that Sun Yan said. What is to reject? He thought, puzzled.
"I… shouldn't have fallen for you." Sun Yan answered. "Or else, I won't feel this hurt if you will reject me." He said.
"'hurt'?" Fei Luo's eyes widened. "You are hurt?!" he exclaimed.
"En. Here." Sun Yan answered and pointed his chest.
Fei Luo was shocked. "What… what can I do so that you won't feel hurt?" he asked.
"If you agree to be with me." Sun Yan answered.
"'agree'… what does this mean?" Fei Luo asked, feeling puzzled again.
All his life, he lived for only his brother. He wanted to become better and better to make his brother's life easier. He is willing to suffer for the sake of his brother, thus he came strict on himself and restrained himself, especially his emotions. He never had anything he wanted, and only focused on what his brother wanted. Thus, he never know what exactly does he want.
"That you are willing to be with me for the rest of our lives." Sun Yan answered. "Be mine… be each other's other halves… like my older uncle and uncle Qie. Like my younger uncle and sect leader Wu. Like your big uncle and elder Xi. Like your small uncle and elder Cheng." He said.
Fei Luo's eyes widened in shock. "You… you want us to become like them?" he said.
Sun Yan nodded as an answer. "To live for each other, and die for each other… Fei Luo. In fact, I don't only like you." He said and looked at him in the eyes. "I love you. Since when we were young, when I saw how you protected your younger brother… I already liked you. Your younger brother has you to protect him… but what about you?" he asked as he stared at Fei Luo's shocked face. "I want to be the one to protect you. Let me. Please." He begged as he pulled the still shocked Fei Luo into his embrace, feeling his warmth.
"You…" Fei Luo muttered when he finally recovered from his shock. "You… what you were saying earlier, you mean this?" he asked and looked at Sun Yan.
"En. Exactly this." Sun Yan nodded.
"But, I…" Fei Luo spoke.
Sun Yan froze when he heard the word 'but'. He felt his blood turned cold. His heart sank. I knew it… he thought and closed his eyes to hide the pain. He wouldn't agree. How can he agree? He –
"I haven't thought about it." Fei Luo said.
Sun Yan felt that his heart that sank to the bottom of the ocean flew back to the heaven. He stared at Fei Luo.
"I haven't thought about who will protect me." Fei Luo honestly said.
Sun Yan stared at Fei Luo before he laughed. Fei Luo, ah, Fei Luo… you looked cold outside but you actually this cute, right? He thought and smiled. "I will protect you." He told him. "Didn't I already do it earlier?" he asked.
"Oh. You did." Fei Luo nodded.
"Then, please let me continue to protect you." Sun Yan said.
"Is it alright?" Fei Luo asked as his brows knit. "You will protect me, but what can I do for you?" he said.
Sun Yan was about to say 'nothing' when he paused. He stared at Fei Luo. "Kiss me." He answered.
"Huh?" Fei Luo muttered and looked at him. "Like earlier?" he asked.
Sun Yan nodded. "Do you feel disgusted of it?" he asked.
"No." Fei Luo shook his head. "It feels very good… comfortable." He answered.
Sun Yan smiled. "Then, you only need to kiss me… ah, wait, there's more." He said.
"What else?" Fei Luo asked. He remembered that Sun Yan risked his life earlier to protect him. Thus, he also wanted to do something for him.
"This…" Sun Yan muttered as his face became red.
"What is it? Tell me!" Fei Luo said.
Sun Yan's breathing became ragged and he stared at Fei Luo. "Answer me first. Do you agree to be with me?" he asked.
Fei Luo nodded. "I do." He answered.
"Good." Sun Yan deeply sighed and he pulled Fei Luo to his embrace. "Take off our clothes." He said.
Fei Luo really did take off this clothes, as well as Sun Yan's. Now, they are both naked, and Fei Luo saw Sun Yan's thing standing. Fei Luo's thing also is slightly standing because of their kiss earlier.
"You are also hard." Sun Yan spoke as he touched Fei Luo's skin. His hand trembled in both nervousness and excitement.
Fei Luo shivered when he felt his cold skin was touched by Sun Yan's warm hands. "What to do next?" he asked.
"I…" Sun Yan spoke. "Tell me later if it will hurt. I will be gentle." He told him.
Fei Luo was puzzled but then he nodded. Then, Sun Yan kissed him and he lied down on the ground. Their positions became reversed.
Sun Yan touched Fei Luo all over his body. "Touch me, too." He whispered with a hoarse voice.
Fei Luo felt his body was on fire as Sun Yan touched him and so he also touched him. He gulped when he felt Sun Yan's hard muscles, especially that thing that is poking him on his abdomen. Sun Yan then rubbed his thing between Fei Luo's thighs, which made Fei Luo's gasps louder. He covered Fei Luo's lips with his lips and, later, both of them came.
Sun Yan then lubricated Fei Luo's behind using the white liquid they produced before he inserted his fingers behind Fei Luo. Fei Luo squirmed, feeling uncomfortable but Sun Yan's long fingers fortunately found his spot fast and he came again.
Fei Luo gasped hard. "Sun Yan… it feels so good…" he said with his eyes glazed with desire. He never had done this kind of thing before, and he never knew this would feel this good!
"I will make you feel even better." Sun Yan whispered as he slowly entered behind Fei Luo.
Fei Luo's eyes widened in shock and he was about to cry in pain when Sun Yan suddenly pushed all the way in. Fei Luo felt his mind became blank and tears fell from his eyes but Sun Yan kissed him, repeatedly called his name beside his ears before he slowly thrusted. Then, after a while, the pain eased and Fei Luo's tensed muscles finally relaxed, and then pleasure surrounded the both of them.
Sun Yan covered Fei Luo's lips to prevent him from crying too loud.. Then, they continued their lovemaking with only the moonlight as the witness.