Chapter 48 - 48 - Broken [R18]

PEGGY POV

When I went out of the bathroom, Jayden was already sleeping on the bed. I wanted to sleep on the floor but I was afraid he would get mad at me more.

I slowly laid down next to him. He was facing on the other side so I could see his broad shoulders. I wanted to hug him from behind but he might avoid my touch again. It hurt when he avoided me earlier. 

I couldn't sleep. He was just next to me but I felt like he's still far away from me. He turned around facing me, but he was still sleeping. I stared at his face and didn't notice that I reached out my hand to touch him. I brushed my fingers to his eyebrows, to his eyes, his nose then down to his lips. I missed him. I wouldn't deny that.

I was startled when he suddenly grabbed my hand. When I looked at him, he was staring back at me. He's awake? I was embarrassed. Heat rose to my cheeks. I was pulling my hand from him but he suddenly rolled over on top of me.

"Jayden, get off me!" 

"Why? Remember I told you, you will serve me in bed." He said. I can see lust in his eyes. It wasn't love.

My heart was beating like a drum. Will he really force me to make love to him? I felt something piercing my heart again. I don't want this. But do I really have a choice?

I don't know why but I suddenly became afraid of him. I felt like he's a different person. I could easily read him before, but now he's different. He changed.

I didn't say a word. I was just looking at him but I felt a tear fall from my eye. He frowned.

"Tsk. I'll just go out tonight and find someone else." He said before letting me go.

He stood up and was about to leave but I couldn't let him go out like this. I won't let him find some other girl. It was like when we were in high school. He dated another girl because I broke up with him. He was at the door when I grabbed his shirt.

"What?" He asked, annoyed.

"Don't leave." I murmured.

"Why?" He asked while looking at me intensely.

"S-Stay here." I stuttered.

"You're so selfish. You don't want me to touch you right? I need sex. If you can't give me that then I'll find someone who is willing to do it with me. Maybe I should go ask Missy."

'Slap'

I couldn't take it. How dare he say that? Why would he involve Missy? Next thing I knew, I had already slapped him in the face.

I looked at him and he's face was dark. I felt scared. I have never been scared of him. His eyes were like Camila's. Emotionless. I walked backwards when he started to get closer. But he rushed towards me and grabbed my hands.

He pushed me on the bed, pinning me down. It was so fast that I didn't even notice that he already tied my hand using his belt. I was about to say something but he suddenly kissed me. Pressing his lips aggressively and hungrily into mine. I felt his teeth bit my lower lip. I could taste my own blood coming from my lips it was bleeding.

Is he going to force himself on me? I felt my body shiver. My heart felt like it was going to burst. I could feel his full erection between my thighs.

He then kissed me on the neck and felt his mouth sucked my shoulder, putting a mark on me.

"Jayden, please no." I begged.

I don't like this. He's not the Jayden I know. I begged and called out his name but he didn't stop.

He ripped my clothes exposing my naked body. I froze. When we were in high school, he tried to force me but he stopped when he saw me crying and trembling. Right now, I am already crying and my body was trembling but he wasn't stopping.

He unzipped his pants, positioned himself on top of me and forced himself inside me. 

"Jayden please stop. You're hurting me." I continued to beg and cry, but he didn't stop.

I felt like it was the first time I had sex with him, it was painful. Maybe because it has been 3 years already. I felt like something was tearing me apart. How could he do this to me?

I stopped begging when I realized he wouldn't stop. I didn't fight back nor say a single word. I was crying silently as he thrust his dick inside and out of my core. He wasn't gentle. He was rough.

I missed him and I want to make love to him, but not like this. I didn't like it. I couldn't feel any pleasure in this, it was just pure pain.

I felt him released inside me and stood up after. I just laid on the bed, tears kept falling from my eyes. It was painful. My body aches all over. But it was my heart that was hurting so bad. I wanted to die. Never had I imagined he could actually forced himself on me. I thought he would never hurt me. But I was wrong.

He was sitting on the bed quietly. He was not saying anything. He wasn't looking at me either. I was still hoping he would turn around and comfort me. That he would apologize for what he did to me.

'Please say something. Just tell me you still love me so all this pain would go away.' I thought to myself.

"Try to slap me again and that's not the only thing that will happen to you. I'm not the same person as before. You made me like this so bear with it." Instead of saying how much he loves me, those words came out from his mouth.