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The last sentence I said to Gao Kan was "goodbye". At that moment, the two words that came out of my mouth were extremely hateful, I thought that we would die together, but who would have thought that in the following years, we would become ordinary friends. — — Yi Shanshan

Until today, three years later, I remember that summer morning.

Golden rose rays shone through the half-open curtains, covering the large living room with a layer of warm light. However, the cold was excruciating.

After climbing four steps, I suddenly felt that I had left, it was a bit too embarrassing. Could it be that I, Yi Shanshan, am that the clothes he was sick of, or was not used to wearing, or could drop easily if he didn't want to casually drop them, just like that, lying obediently in the trash can?

"Gao Kan," I thought to myself as I stopped, bit my lower lip, sucked in a few breaths to stop my trembling teeth, hold onto the banister tightly, and turned my head. I called to the man who had his hands in his pockets, then slowly walked to the front door, squeezed out a very formal, polite, and indifferent smile, the most dignified and proper smile I had learned from two years of acting, and said to him: "Goodbye."

At that time, we were quite a distance away and my vision was blurred with tears, so I didn't see Gao Kan's face clearly. I only remembered the blurry paleness of his dark, gaunt face, the reflection of his lonely figure on the floor, the fake smile that was as fake as mine when he turned his head to look at me, and the almost inaudible word "goodbye".

After saying my farewells to Gao Kan with great self-respect, I walked step by step, towards the guest room with steady steps.

After just locking the door, he threw himself onto the bed. Actually, for an instant, his mind was clear, and I kept having the feeling that something was wrong with Gao Kan.

At that time, I really wanted to rush out, go down the stairs and call Gao Kan, then hold him by the waist and rub his face which had been slapped twice by me, and ask him if it hurt. I imagined acting like this and acting coquettishly towards Gao Kan, telling him that my heart hurt so much that he wanted to hug me and kiss me.

However, at that moment, her rationality had gained the upper hand. A twenty-two to twenty-three year old girl, after completely escaping from her young, naive, naive, young age, and entered the adult world filled with fear and trepidation, was actually very afraid of getting hurt, afraid of falling down, afraid of losing what she had lost. She was scared of what she had lost, and the word "afraid" came from her bones.

At that time, I comforted myself, when I was crying until my entire body was powerless, and my heart was aching to the point of suffocating, I was afraid that I would faint due to lack of Qi and blood, affecting the production of the TV show three days later, then I advised myself, this kind of ending is good, I finally do not have to be in a dilemma, and think about how to deal with Gao Junfeng.

Gao Junfeng had already banned Han Youya and even paid a fee of 5 million to cancel the contract with E.G company. He also paid a sky-high price of 100 million to sign a contract with an actor like me who wasn't too popular.

If I don't break up with Gao Kan now, I believe that from the start of Yi Canlan, to Qian Yang, Auntie Li, Lisa, Little Wang, and the others who were close to me, they will all begin to suffer. He will definitely kill me in order to achieve his goals, and if I don't get Gao Kan here, he will destroy Gao Kan.

I am the fish on Gao Junfeng's chopping board, and can only passively wait for it to become a delicacy, without the right to choose life and death.

Although Gao Junfeng said that he didn't have any feelings for Gao Kan, and only treated him as a tool to pass on his generations and bring glory to his ancestors, I know that he actually cared a lot about his relationship with Gao Kan. He's old, and his life is already at an end.

Therefore, Gao Junfeng used his gentle, vicious, and all-cutting sharp blade to chop off my body. From here on out, I will begin to have love in my heart, wanting to separate from his Gao Kan and take him away.

I told myself that at least I didn't have to bear the guilt and remorse of my conscience, and that I no longer had to worry about Gao Kan being hurt by me. I could freely continue walking forward towards a beautiful future without any qualms, and maybe, like Gao Kan had said, would fall in love with someone and taste the lips of another man. Or perhaps, he was also cute, amiable, and could be entrusted with his life.

If that didn't work, then the next one, there would always be one who did.

I can't do it, there's no love anymore, at least I can still be famous, have a lot of money, money can be exchanged for sincere friends, friendship, charity, the respect and love of others, buying the most luxurious famous brands, bags, clothes, food, and seeing the beautiful scenery of all five lakes and seas.

After a long time, Gao Kan started to become blurry in my heart, and the seed sprouting in the test tube finally broke through the bottle cap. Unknowingly, I jumped into a brand-new world.

I have my own studio, first-rate team and agent, a boyfriend who changes his friends every few days. No matter what I do, I don't need to care about the people's faces, I will always be called "Miss Eyre" wherever I go. I am very satisfied.

In short, in these past few years, every day, there were always people playing with him, and he would only fall asleep after midnight. Either he would be immersed in filming movies and TV dramas, or he would be busy working at work for 365 days a year, and wouldn't be able to relax. Without Gao Kan's help, his heart would be filled with all kinds of things and people, and he would not feel any pain anymore.

This process was just like a person maturing, slow and unaware.

I had nothing better to do one day, so when I recalled my past, I realized little by little that I had gotten used to days without Gao Kan. It was on the Christmas of the year we parted, the 195th day after our breakup.

The birthday party and concert, which was planned for me by E.G. and later switched to SMP, was held at the Red House, and I said a lot of words of thanks to all of them in an excited, tired, and choked voice, as I faced the people who had come to listen to my concert or join the fun, as well as the reporters from all walks of the media.

From the members of my studio's work team behind the scenes, to the new owner's SMP, to the audience who bought the tickets, to the security guards at the door, every single person expressed their gratitude for the success of my dream's concert. In that world of light and shadow filled with screams, tears, sweat, and colors, Gao Kan's face suddenly appeared in my mind.